Deep Healing Happens in Private

I've pulled back from sharing about my healing journey (or whatever you wanna call it) a lot through the last half year or so. 

It's not that I don't have things I'd love to share with you all... I've got a little journal full of ideas and in my opinion, pretty good information. But, I'm in no rush. For once, I'm letting it happen without my forced timing. 

And honestly, I've needed to step back the last few months. Simply because I realized that a lot of the deep healing happens in private. It's not all about the surface, the things I can show. It's not the medications, injections, IVs. It's not always voicing every emotion, every decision, every step forward or backwards. 

Healing can be a private friendship you create with yourself. It's willing to go back to the places that hurt the most. It's a dedication to stripping down to your bones, and still feeling strong. It's giving up your control again and again. It's accessing deep, and sometimes dark, layers. It's going places that are very hard to go. It's a willingness to try. To let go. To live lightly. It's a process of developing unwavering trust. 

It's taking chances. 

It's dismantling fear. 

It's fucking everything. 

True healing is life long if you do it right. Because healing is your growth. It's your evolution. 

I'm in this for the long haul. Who's with me?